faraway look

do i see your face everyday?
do you have a face?
do i have many faces or one?
did you look for me in the crowd?

did i search for you in my closet?
did you tell me you lived far far away?
did i give you a yellow stone?
did you dance to my song?
did i tie your shoelace?
did you make me stay with you?
did i drop some coffee on your shirt?
did you sing to me when it was dark?
did i laugh at you until you grew red?

let me be lonely

Dear you.

forgive my audacity.
let me sink into you first.

do you not hear me?
are you so numb that
you lost count of
how many of my hands
i want you to hold.

let me take your voice away.
let me take your power away
and turn them into bad dreams.

just let me go
if you think we don't think well
we don't love well

laugh until the dark well leaps up to you.
you don't know i have left you.
for no one knows
and no one will know.
how my dark water breathes.

forgive my audacity, now.
i'm too tired.
let me sleep.

start again

if you think you've figured me out alright.
go back and start again.
i might have lost myself in between..
don't claw me so many times.
i'll flow away blissfully.

loneliness or the loss of it

I was tired of the same old days.

Watching them over and over.

Through the same myopic lens.

So you waited at my door.

And I came out, knowing I would run into you.

Unlike the times before, it was quiet.

Quiet. Holy. Charming.

I rested my eyes on you.

And the way we saw one and read the other was like justice written in poetic verses.

I looked back and found nothing.

I had escaped you.

And I had burnt you.

I left you with a little more than nothing.

You sent me to hell.

Now you stood before me with calmness in your eyes.

My face lost its tightness.

Inspite of me, I smiled

You, floating in your tide of highs.

I know you caught me prying.

Found me spot on.

But we were being watched

From all the corners

Every window looked on..

And the walls stared with coldness and pity.

So I shut all of it up. And changed gears

We walked through the bus stop

You walked beside me, your head bowed down.

Comfortable and faceless.

I walked back home.

You watched me enter.

And walked away.